Try picking up a book and learning more about
tipics that intrest you. It sounds like your in a conflict with your disere for mental stimulation. You need to wipe away those deeper emotions with a sweep of positive thoughts. Remember, being sensitive to your inner world doesn't mean you have to obsess over it. Every once in a while I find myself hiding in the shadow's of darkness, but then I remember. " you have got to put one foot out there to explore the wonderful possibilities that are right in front of you. I have learned how to use my past experiences to build on my better 2morrow's.
My husband is a genetic alcoholic, (by that, I mean is mother was also an alcoholic). We have struggled with that for years. Last year he was diagnosed with Large B Cell Lymphoma, once again I stood by him through his Chemo., but wouldn't you know, he still drank. this year he is drinking even more. I still felt the need to stand by him. Recently, I demanded he get's help or he gets out. I understand alcohol is also a disease, just like cancer, but now I'm starting to realize that this entire time I keep fight his battles I've ignored my needs along with my health. My entire world has been crashing down on me and my attention was so forcused on him, I didn't even see it coming. I now take atleast 30 min., out of my very busy day to find me and try to put me back together. It's not easy but I know in my heart if I don't I will loose sight of me.
Dark, for your own health and peace, you need to dig deep with-in and find something that intrest you, something you can make your own and before you know it, you will find life can have endless possibilities.
Best wishes to you
Would you like to start a thread of your own? That way we all get a chance to meet you and you will have your own place to share your good and your not so good times with us. Welcome to HW.
Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 6/13/2008 10:41:35 AM (GMT-6)