First of all I want to welcome you to the forum, We are very glad that you are here.
Wow, I almost think I wrote your post about
6 years ago. I to have been divorced for a very long time,went through a very abusive marriage.
I had 2 kids that are now 18 and 21.
I miss them,and hate it when they have to leave,but it does get better.
What I think you might be experiencing is the "empty nest syndrome". It happens to good moms.
I think that you should contact your doctor,and find out what he thinks.
Here is a survey that you can fill out ,and even take to him if you feel comfortable..this helps with some of your questions.www.clevelandclinic.org/health/health-info/docs/2200/2276.asp?index=9314
I have been thinking about
getting a dog,something to "mother'... do you have a pet?
Please keep talking.