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Date Joined Sep 2007
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   Posted 6/13/2008 5:27 AM (GMT -6)   
i feel alone ...dont know what to say....  i have said it all before...i am trying i really am ....whats wrong with me ????? why cant i just get on with life, live and be happy ......i know one step at a time but where to and why???I hate days like these where i want to hide, want to give up but i cant, what am i waiting or hopeing for ?????

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Date Joined Apr 2008
Total Posts : 363
   Posted 6/13/2008 5:36 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Dark,

I'm really sorry that your not feeling happy, I feel the same as you do a lot of the time, it's horrible to feel such a lack of control over our emotions! I think your waiting and hoping for happiness, It's a good thing to wait and hope for I think! Sometimes I can see it in reach, othertimes it's not so clear!

I feel the same as you - "why can't I just get on with life, live and be happy" I guess it's not so easy!! but yeah we've just got to take it one step at a time, I guess it's a slow process, do you see a counsellor or talk to anybody?
"The Optimist sees the rose and not its thorns; the pessimist stares at the thorns, oblivious of the rose."

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Date Joined Dec 2005
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   Posted 6/13/2008 6:24 AM (GMT -6)   

It is hard to get back on your feet. I had to start over after going through so much,and thought I would never get out of it.

Somehow I did,I still have bad days believe me...but have gotten better and getting through them..I wonder how most of the time.

I wish I could take you by the hand and help you in person.
You need to find someone that can help you,even if it is just talking to them.

I know you have goals,what are they? that is something to think about,trying to reach one goal and then working on another....

What are your plans for the future?

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Chronic Depression, Panic Attacks,Anxiety Attacks,Anorexia

Please remember,I am not a professional..I am just a person who is also fighting depression.

I know I'm in my own little world, but it's ok. They know me here.

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Date Joined Jun 2008
Total Posts : 416
   Posted 6/13/2008 9:34 AM (GMT -6)   
Okay dark, I'm not trying to convert you or anything but I was just wondering if you believe in God? You don't have to reply, just a retorical question. Anyway, all my life I have been waiting and searching for something. And now I'm finding it. It was God. And I personally, could not be whole without Him. Just a thought. He loves you. You have a purpose. Just wanted to add that.

Sorry mods if you have to delete this. I'm not trying to convert or anything. I'm just sharing how God has helped me.
"There is hope for every man, a solid place where we can stand, in this dry in weary land, there is hope for every man... Jesus is hope for every man"  -Casting Crowns

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Date Joined Apr 2007
Total Posts : 32602
   Posted 6/13/2008 10:03 AM (GMT -6)   
My Dear Friend Dark,
You are moving you just are not recognizing it.  You here with us, your getting through the days and the long nights but you are making it and taking those baby steps.

Grief in bereavement is a universal human experience that is handled in different ways by different people. The nature of your  relationship that you had with the friend  you have lost, the quality of the relationship,  and your own personality all play major roles in the grieving process. It is ok to grieve for your friend in your own way and still keep moving ahead.
Do something in honor of her life. Plant a tree, or tie a ribbon around a tree, or write a poem in her memory, anything that helps you to honor the kind and wonderful person she was.

Remember she had an illness and would not have left you if she had not been sick. 
So when you sit by that ocean toss some rocks into the water and with each rock remember something good about her or a memory that makes you smile.
Let your tears help you heal and know I am near you in spirit.
Gentle Hugs dear friend

Kitt, Moderator: Anxiety, Panic & Depression 
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It is health that is real wealth and not pieces of gold and silver.~Mahatma Gandhi~

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Date Joined Sep 2007
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   Posted 6/13/2008 10:05 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Dark,

I am sorry that you are in such dispair. I truly hope that soon there will be a light at the end of that dark tunnel for you. You have been through so much. It must feel unbearable. But You can get through this. We are here to help you as much as we possibly can. And as always you can email me at any time. You are such a special person to all of us. We just wish that there was a magic wand or something that we could wave and make all of the pain go away.

Keep posting to us. We really want to help you. If nothing else just to listen.

I am so happy that you posted, and like I say I am always up for an email.

Luv and hugs sweetie,
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies

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Date Joined Sep 2007
Total Posts : 105
   Posted 6/14/2008 3:11 PM (GMT -6)   
thank you all for the support and advise ((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))

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Date Joined Apr 2007
Total Posts : 32602
   Posted 6/14/2008 6:35 PM (GMT -6)   

Hugs back to you Dark, my friend.  I feel your pain and I am praying for you and for Conni.

Bless you

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Date Joined Jan 2006
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   Posted 6/15/2008 1:53 AM (GMT -6)   

HI Dark,

I can understand how you feel. I used to feel like that sometimes and it is a horrible feeling. I was wondering if you have any hobbies? Maybe that could be an escape for you?


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