Don't worry about
what other people think about
you. You need help. You deserve help and we are all here telling you that you should seek out assistance if it is available to you regarding your income. You are young. Many of us have been around for a while. I am 56 and I have been in your place a time or two as have many other people. Experience tells you that there is nothing wrong with seeking help from wherever you can get it and good people won't judge you. Good people will want to help you, because most people are very caring, especially here on this forum.
Keep posting and tell us of how you are doing. I will pray for you Chrissy. God bless you, your husband and your precious children. Remember they all want you to be better.
Moderator Chronic Pain
Believe in yourself. Be kind to fellow humans and animals. Take time to smell the flowers and the coffee.
And by all means, when you are down, ask me for help. I will be there.