PLEASE DON'T DROP YOUR MEDS
I am a 51 year old woman who has been on Anti Depressants for EXTREME anxiety/depression for the past 18 years.
THREE times I decided that I could do it all 'on my own' without the crutch of the meds........I weaned off the proper way,
and every time, within six months to a year, after repeated stressful situations, i crashed. I crashed HORRIBLY.
I'm on that third crash right now. I was suicidal. I prayed to god, it was awful. So after talking and sobbing to my daughter
on the phone (she's going thru her own things right now) she convinced me to get back on my Paxil. It has only been five days,
and of course i'm not over the awful side-effect time period yet, but I cannot EVER go without my meds.
We all do it. We start feeling pretty good, some of us maybe start feeling not as good as we did when we first started them, but we still invariably think "I don't think I need those meds as my CRUTCH anymore" I want to walk that tightrope WITHOUT A NET!!!!
And we wean off, and a small % of us, are o.k.
But many MANY of us will not be for long. And going thru the hell of adjusting to a new med again, isn't any fun either.
I read a great book at the library recently that said that if you have had a 'relapse' 3 or more times after going off your meds, YOU NEED TO BE ON THEM FOREVER...................................And you need to be monitored FOREVER. The therapist thing, i don't know about. I've never been to one in my life, cos i was always afraid they didn't care about what i had to say, they just care about the money. Funny, i had just made the decision to find one tomorrow, but after reading a lot of your posts about how long you have been to them, and they haven't helped.........I wonder.............I feel I DO NEED an expert in meds though, to monitor me as i'm going back on my paxil. I was great on it, for 12 years.
I started to get weepy there before i decided to wean off, but i'm smack dab in the middle of menopause too..........i'm sure that has something to do with it. But instead of getting off of them, and doing it all alone, i needed to see someone, just to re-evaluate me, and readjust my dose. NOT GET OFF OF THEM.
SO PLEASE THINK TWICE about GETTING OFF YOUR MEDS, IVE BEEN THERE SO MANY TIMES.
At first, we feel good... Even GREAT. Almost manic. CLEAR HEADED, ALIVE, ABLE TO FEEL "were CURED!!!! - WE'RE ELATED"..................................but then, we have one stressful event after another hit us, and all of a sudden WHAM................................WE fold like a card table again. We can't cope with ANYTHING............
I can't speak for anyone but myself, but just re-think about 'shucking' your meds.