I'm sorry you're feeling this way, Hoping. I'm having similar thoughts lately I think, though I do not know what you're going through I can share my feelings I guess...
Lately I've been stressed thinking about
bills, debt, life, etc... And I get to thinking "WHAT is the point of all this? I wake up, I go to work, I get paid, I pay bills, I'm broke, I get into credit card debt, I can only make minimum payments and I'll never get it paid off. What if I can't pay all my bills? What if I can't get the things we need? What if something unforseen happens and I can't afford it. And if things are like this now, how in the world will I ever afford a child or a house or anything that I want to do in the future?" It feels like life is just all downhill once you're an adult and I feel like every day I wake up and every day things just get worse and I'm just digging myself in this hole that I'm afraid I'll never get out of. And I have measly credit card debt compared to the average american but to a 23 year old who isn't making that much, $3,500 is a lot, with electric, rent, car insurance, water, garbage, internet/cable, health insurance, cell phone, and just thinking about
what next month makes me feel panicked and hopeless.
I feel like sometimes my life isn't at all going how I hoped it would and every day that goes by is one less day to change things and it's all falling apart and not into place like it should.
I just keep telling myself that there's still time and I think how there are so many people out there who have it so much worse off than me, like 10's of thousands of dollars of debt, or whatever, and that if I just keep trying and hoping things will get better. And I suppose there's no way to know unless I Just hang in there and see.
I don't know, this wasn't helpful, sorry.
Female, 22, Ulcerative colitis (pancolitis) since 1999; GERD; gastritis; oste
openia in hip & lumbar region of the spine from long term prednisone use. Current Meds:
10mg Lexapro (for depression/social anxiety)
Digestive Advantage: Crohn's and Colitis formula (2 pills per day, started 5/14/08)
4800mg Asacol (Four 400mg tablets, three times a day)