Hi new here. I am 44 and the mother of 3 kids who I love with all my heart. I have a husband who tries to understand but since my thoughts are none stop and logically don't make sense it is hard for him. I worry . the same thougths of worry play over and over in my head. I can't sleep I wake up with these thoughts. I put on a good face most times.
How do you stop it. I knw logically that what is done is sone but i cna't stop. I also now may have to interview for a new job. I don't want to change but I don't kow how long my job will be there and I am afraid if I don't make a change --then when I need to there won't be a job there .. I am in a very specialized field. I work 5 minutes from my home and only 4 days a week ..It is perfect with kids. The new job is 5 days and a 45 minute commute.
I worry about my 3 kids --my girl is such a drama queen and sometimes seems to want to be sad. Life is so hard for kids now . I wnat to be a good parent but i know lately I haven't had a lot of patients and feel horrible about that. I just wish it would all just end . It is crazy but when I went tothe dr last year after not going for over 8 . I wa hoping they wold find some terminal disease and I was depressed to find out I am healthy
this is going on and on . I am so tired of beign sad and trying to act happy. why can't I accept life for what it is and amove on and enjoy what I have which I kno w is better thenalot