Hi One day,
I am sorry that I had to delete a few words in your post.
I think that the reason that you want to hurt yourself is to feel something other than the depression that you are going through. But try not to do that, because it might feel okay at the moment, but after a while you will be ashamed and angry that you did it.
Come on here and talk. We will try to help you as much as we can. I am going to give you some numbers and websites to get into contact with if this continues.
Are you going to any counseling at the moment? That could be so helpful to you at this time. But in the meantime, keep posting, we are here for you.
National Suicide Hotline
This is a combined network of the Amerian Association of Suicidology, the National Hopeline Network, CONTACT USA, and many other organizations. Call are automatically routed to the nearest crisis center to the phone from which the call for help is placed.
Helpful Web Sites:
Suicide Hotlines (listed by state)
Suicidal.com (includes Suicide Crisis Center and Depression and Suicide)
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