You do not have to open the emails from your girlfirend, just delete them and let it go. Or go into your email and put her address down as spam and it will go to your spam account. You are a good person but you will feel better if you just don't open the emails.
I am sorry your upset but along with Karen I must warn you of the rules, please no more posts along the lines of what you posted this morning.
We have members as young as 13 on the boards.
Discussions of suicide or self-harm that are deemed negative and therefore potentially injurious to others are also not permitted.
We are here to support you and we care about you but we are not professionals. In no way am I trying to be tough on you. AS I have said before, I have lived some of what you are going through. I know where you are coming from. My prayers for you.