Well, first, Im sorry I havent been on as much as usual. School. That explains everything. btw, I did really good with my class. I also did ok on the ACT. As some of you know, I had to make a 24 on the math so that my Calculus this school year will count as college credit...I made a 24!!!! I was really excited and proud of myself...
Ok, so that was then... this is now. Now, Im not feeling so great. I went to the doctor Thursday. I went to talk about my Fibro meds. Im staying on them for now even though they arent helping any. We were afraid to take me off because I didnt want it to get worse or affect my sleep, however, we didnt want to up the dosage...
I got back on my anxiety med and its doubled. Funny because he said it would probably knock me out... Nope. Hasnt affected me at all. Even though it does wonders for my allergies! Thank goodness it cleared those up again, I thought I would sneeze myself to death when I ran out and didnt have a refill! Anyways, had a bunch of blood tests. And got my thryoid checked. I used to get excited hoping something would come back wrong so that at least I would know something was wrong. Right now, it would make me very happy if my thyroid test came back abnormal. It would mean that Im not crazy. Its so easy when you know whats wrong. The thing is, I've gotten so used to nothing showing up, if something did I would be shocked.
I have been in a snappy mood lately. Sleeping alot. Laying on the couch. I have been having trouble thinking, and for those who know me, you know thats not something that usually happens to me. Having trouble focusing, my mind keeps flashing to something else and then back. I've also been eating more than usual, and the last time that happened, well...I wont go into that. So, Im sitting here trying to think things through. I didnt know what to do so I decided to type it out. But, Im still very confused about alot of things...
"Healing is an energy phenomenon. Hope is another
word for Healing.
"Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart
no matter how strong you are"
"Sometimes it is best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve"
"Im going to
smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me."