And welcome to Healing Well depression forum.
I am 49 and have no children other than through marraige, but I chose to be that way so I can't complain. But I do know that I love my husband's children as if they were my own. And grandchildren are so special.
Life as you know it, is not over. You could still have a family. So don't give up on that just yet.
The smile comes from within. You may practice it, but you have to feel it also to truly be happy.
Are you seeing a counselor or anything. You do need to talk to somebody. Coming here is good but not the same as one on one therapy and we can't give you any medical advice. So if I were you, I would talk to the doctor and see what they would recommend. It is very important that you speak to somebody.
I hope that you start to feel better soon, in the meantime, keep posting, there is a wonderful group of people here who can share their experiences with you.
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies