very interesting topic. ive actually pondered that question many of times...is it possible to achieve true happiness in life? i think its wonderful that you're still in good contact with family or exfamily. it sounds like youre a caring person.
i think for me, (unfortunetly) im a general pessimist..its just the way i am, i cant really help it. but i think that people who view everything in life or most things in such a habitually pessimistic way feel that theres no hope for much.
personally, id like to read most of your posts, cause you sound like a nice caring person with interesting thoughts on the mind.
keep searching for ultimate happiness. even people who are happy should keep searching for the ultimate. also, dont let your age play with your mind! i know people say this alot, but age is nothing but a number. everyone lives their life differently, at different healths, different wealths, different everything! dont think that because you're getting older you cant have happy moments. you just gotta allow yourself to have them.
(hope that made sense i tend to ramble...)
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