Hey they girlfriend............you are going to be OK, I promise. I made it through the skin cancer surgery and hey I am still here. I know any surgery is frightening. I always thing the day before the procedure, "Tommorow at this time it will be just history"
We spend to much time on how to make ourself miserable. W tend to spend a lot of time in the past or the future. We spend much time thinking about what was and what could have been. And we spend much time projecting into the future and wondering about what may happen.
Solving this problem is of course to live as much as you can in the only moment that you ever really lie in and control.This moment right now. The moment that is all there ever was and - probably will be.
Kick that fear to the curb, you can do it and leave the past where it is. Forget the bogieman and get out and enjoy life. I know I am on my pulpit and do I do these things, I try Aurora, I really try hard.
Hugs to you my friend.