I just got back from the mall with my mom, sister and my friend. Shopping is supposed to be fun right? Well today it wasn't for me. I went from 152 lbs to 144 lbs in 4 months. I'm 5 ft 4.5 inches. I have a normal BMI. I was happy because I went from a size 10 to an 8. Today I tried on some jeans and the 8 fit but was a little tight. My mom and sister said it looked tight. My friend said it looked ok. So I got the 10. After we left the store and my sister, mom and friend browsed some more.. I just burst out crying. I couldn't help it. I had all these negative thoughts running in my head. "I'm fat, I'm huge, I'm ugly." My friend who is taller than me 5 ft 7 inches is 168 lbs and wears the same size as me! I was just so angry that we wear the same size and she weighs more. I felt huge. I wanted to leave the mall right then and there but my mom said no. Then during the car ride home my mom said "thanks for embarassing me in front of your friend!" She also said that she's never going shopping with me and my friend ever again because I just embarass her and that I'm not fun to be around. And my dad said "we've been trying to get you to eat less sometimes but you never listen to us." It made me feel worse. My mom told me I'm not a fun person to be around and that I'll never be like a model. Lots of guys think I'm pretty but I don't feel good about
myself. It doesn't help when I hear comments like that from my parents. I seriously am thinking of just eating half a meal each day. I just want to look better in outfits and have my parents be proud of how I look. I feel so empty and worthless inside. I'm scared to eat in front of my parents. They are eating dinner now as we speak and I just don't feel like eating. :-( Please help.
Post Edited (confusedgirl22) : 7/14/2008 5:47:56 PM (GMT-6)