Firstly I want to congratulate you on getting your Masters degree! Getting a degree is very hard work (I have just finished mine) and I imagine that a Masters is much harder. It doesnt matter how smart you are compared to your brother. What matters is how smart you are. Do you have the brains and qualifications to pursue your chosen career? If so then your smart enough. If you dont have the pieces of paper to tell you your smart but you know your smart inside then thats good enough too.
Depression is something that 'normal' people think they understand but when they try and support someone who is depressed, it kinna goes pear-shaped because they dont quite understand. Your husband sounds very supportive of you and it sounds like he is doing a reasonable job. Have you tried telling him what he needs to do to help you? I would definately seek professional help for your Self-Esteem issues. So often, a good self esteem can lift all sorts of other problems and so I would start by trying to deal with that.
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