Hello, this is Kitt and I am sorry for the edits but I will remind all to read rules and do realize that as moderators it is our responsibility to keep the site safe.
We are not professionals but peers and members just like each of you.
Due to the anonymity of the site and the fact that this is a peer support group and not responsible for calling any authority on any member that threatens suicide, we strongly encourage members to call the hotline , 911, a family member or a friend, or to check themselves in to the local hospital emergency room.
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. You are worth much more.
You appear to have depression and I agree with the person that suggested you go to the physicians as you have medical insurance and with the new privacy rules, the physician cannot discuss your issues with your parents. Youshould make sure you get a good screening evaluation to make sure you don't have a physical problem going on. Also talk to your physician about therapy.
Sometimes we get stressed out when everything happens all at once. When this happens, take a deep breath and try to find something to do for a few minutes to get your mind off of the problem. Get some fresh air, listen to some music, or do an activity that will give you a fresh perspective on things.
Visualize a red stop sign in your mind when you encounter a fear provoking thought. When the negative thought comes, think of a red stop sign that serves as a reminder to stop focusing on that thought and to think of something else. You can then try to think of something positive to replace the negative thought.
Learn to take it one day at a time. Instead of worrying about how you will get through the rest of the week or coming month, try to focus on today. Each day can provide us with different opportunities to learn new things and that includes learning how to deal with your problems. Focus on the present and stop trying to predict what may happen next week. Next week will take care of itself.
I hope this helps you in some small way and remember the world is a better place because you live and serve withint it.