lunardance, don't feel guilty about
being jealous of those with normal lives. It's a normal reaction and just means we want to BE normal too.
It's a hard battle, because I don't wish them ill, or that they not have what they have--just wish I had the same myself.
I find I also get very upset about people who are going through a tough time or a disaster and I want to help. So as long as there's that balance, I think we're ok.
I know what you mean about even watching tv or a movie where there's happy people or a happy ending. I can turn that off or tell myself it's not real or choose not to watch it. It's friends or family that I can't ignore that's difficult.