Hey all it Roxy43 again. Wow I introduced myself and was going to go post my story and then something interrupted me and haven't been able to get back on. Finally I get my chance. Well Like I said before I have a pretty good life but just don't feel happy. i have had depression on and off for about
20 yrs. I have been on different meds. Zoloft, Prozac, Effexor, luvox, Wellbutrin ( which i felt like I was having a heart attack on) and I am now on Effexor XR 37.5mg. I feel like they work for a few months and then stop working and I am so tired of trying different ones. I just have no energy, motivation to do anything. We are remodeling our house so I am trying to help with that. I just don't find joy in anything anymore. Whats worse is that my husband just lost his cousin to a very rare brain disease in short called CJD she was only 43 and that is my age. She was diagnosed in May and past away in july. That is so scary and you think I would be like wow I need to be so greatful for what i have but i just am not. I feel so selfish saying that. I have seen alot of different counselors but they don't seem to help. I have seen so many I councel myself lol
Which i guess i am not doing a good job at. I just can't seem to find what I want to do with my life. Sometimes I think i am in a Mid life crisis. I have never thought about
suicide but I picture me as being in a dark hole and feeling so alone and just not being able to climb out. I get really agitated with myself and say just get over it and stop being so melodramatic but I know that it isn't that easy.
Well sorry for this being so long. It is nice to be able to post with people who know what I am feeling and going thru b/c my husband doesn't understand even though he tries.