New here

I'm on the bipolar,and crohn's forums, but I'm not sure where I fit in. My therapist said I was bipolar, but when I went to the psychiatrist he put me on pristiq it really seems to be helping me out.But from what I read its for depression, and I take nothing for the bipolar. I've been reading here for a few so I thought I would say HI. So with my story. Two years ago I got very sick (March 2006) and thats when my life stopped as I knew it. I lost control of my life. It took almost two years and more test than anyone should have to take, and to many doctors,But I have Crohn's,and my depression popped its ugly head out again. I've had two other bouts of depression so, thats where my therapist said I was bipolar. I have such a hard time dealing with the crohn's, I've lost myself in all the tests, and doctors!!! I had one doctor tell me I needed help because he could not figure out what was wrong with me.Its consumed most of my time, I've tried to find out all I can about this disease, because its hard to get to much information from the doctors. I made one so mad he refused to treat me. I don't like anyone talking down to me and that doctor did and more. So in my fight I lost myself in this whole mess. Now my therapist wants me to find something other than the crohn's to define me. I do other things but, I can't get away from the crohn's since I've been having problems. I lost my job in 2006 and there is no way I can work now, I can't separate me from the crohn's. I just want it to all go away. I 'm the type of person that has to be in control and there is no control now. I don't no how to deal with all of this. I put on my happy face and go through my day. There are times its not to bad, but I have a cloud over my head a lot of the time, and I hurt my family with it. My kids are having a hard time dealing because I've always been the one to do everything with them and I haven't been able to go because of how I feel most of the time.It hurts so much, I feel at times if I was out of the picture it would be easier on them, But my kids and my grandkids are my life so I can't do anything. But there are so many days I wish I could go to sleep and not wake up. The drug (pristiq) does work because before I was imposable to be around.

Just wanted to say HI


Dawn

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49 Female
Dx June 07 Crohn's take asacol 2x3 a day , entcort 1x2 day ,lotrel for HBP , omeprezole for stomach , potassium , one a day crohn's & colitis therapy , calcium & Vit D , lomotil for lose stools , tramadol for pain , started humira in Feb 08
Dx Bipolar May 08

Good Morning Dawn,

This is Kitt and I have had Depression for 26 years.  My hubby has Crohns so I do understand how difficult it is to break away from a disease that can control your life or is always in the back of your mind.  It is so hard to push the "what ifs" away as the bad spells are so painful and people without illnesses do not understand depression.

When you have a chronic disease you do feel like you have lost control and any little thing you can control grab onto and concentrate on it.

Learn to take it one day at a time. Instead of worrying about how you will get through the rest of the week or coming month, try to focus on today. Each day can provide us with different opportunities to learn new things and that includes learning how to deal with your problems. Focus on the present and stop trying to predict what may happen next week. Next week will take care of itself

Instead of focusing on doom, stay in the moment. Give yourself breathing space. Consider what matters to you. Establish a few manageable goals, then take small steps toward achieving them.

Hold on to your independence and do as much as you can to control your enviroment and your daily activities.

Be prepared to face the demons of depression and know that it is an illness and it is not who you are.  Your a warm and caring person who has depression and Crohns,  so you be in control as much as you can.

Gentle Hugs to you
Kitt

 

Thank You for your words it does help, I've had two other times I was this depressed, the first was the death of my first husband, And the second was the illness of my husband now. But those were so different because it wasn't really my problems, But it took over me. This one is me and its so hard for me not to think of it. I do want to Thank You again.



Dawn

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49 Female
Dx June 07 Crohn's take asacol 2x3 a day , entcort 1x2 day ,lotrel for HBP , omeprezole for stomach , potassium , one a day crohn's & colitis therapy , calcium & Vit D , lomotil for lose stools , tramadol for pain , started humira in Feb 08
Dx Bipolar May 08

Hello Dawn and welcome to the forum, I am Kevin and am new here also. I have Parkinson's and the depression that comes with it, so I understand the "double whammy" of having two afflictions to deal with at once. I try to take it one day at a time and not get snowed under but I am not always successful. You sound as if you have a full plate and then some. You will find many kindred souls and helpful people here who are fellow travelers on the "blues train". Just wanted to say hi and good to have you.

Kevin

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Parkinson's disease, depression, anxiety disorder

"If you pursue evil with pleasure the pleasure passes away but the evil remains, if you pursue good with labor the good remains and the labor is not wasted."