I'm on the bipolar,and crohn's forums, but I'm not sure where I fit in. My therapist said I was bipolar, but when I went to the psychiatrist he put me on pristiq it really seems to be helping me out.But from what I read its for depression, and I take nothing for the bipolar. I've been reading here for a few so I thought I would say HI. So with my story. Two years ago I got very sick (March 2006) and thats when my life stopped as I knew it. I lost control of my life. It took almost two years and more test than anyone should have to take, and to many doctors,But I have Crohn's,and my depression popped its ugly head out again. I've had two other bouts of depression so, thats where my therapist said I was bipolar. I have such a hard time dealing with the crohn's, I've lost myself in all the tests, and doctors!!! I had one doctor tell me I needed help because he could not figure out what was wrong with me.Its consumed most of my time, I've tried to find out all I can about this disease, because its hard to get to much information from the doctors. I made one so mad he refused to treat me. I don't like anyone talking down to me and that doctor did and more. So in my fight I lost myself in this whole mess. Now my therapist wants me to find something other than the crohn's to define me. I do other things but, I can't get away from the crohn's since I've been having problems. I lost my job in 2006 and there is no way I can work now, I can't separate me from the crohn's. I just want it to all go away. I 'm the type of person that has to be in control and there is no control now. I don't no how to deal with all of this. I put on my happy face and go through my day. There are times its not to bad, but I have a cloud over my head a lot of the time, and I hurt my family with it. My kids are having a hard time dealing because I've always been the one to do everything with them and I haven't been able to go because of how I feel most of the time.It hurts so much, I feel at times if I was out of the picture it would be easier on them, But my kids and my grandkids are my life so I can't do anything. But there are so many days I wish I could go to sleep and not wake up. The drug (pristiq) does work because before I was imposable to be around.
Just wanted to say HI
Dawn
49 Female
Dx June 07 Crohn's take asacol 2x3 a day , entcort 1x2 day ,lotrel for HBP , omeprezole for stomach , potassium , one a day crohn's & colitis therapy , calcium & Vit D , lomotil for lose stools , tramadol for pain , started humira in Feb 08
Dx Bipolar May 08