Posted 7/23/2008 12:49 PM (GMT -6)
I really can't stand this depression fighting anymore. I feel so hopeless all the time. What's even worse is that the people who are supposed to be closest to you let you down the most.
My mom is no doubt depressed, but refuses to admit to it. She mopes around all the time looking all miserable. I just wanna shake her and say "go talk to someone!" but that would be mean. But I wish she would help herself. In return for her own misery, I suffer it as well. She doesn't allow me to do anything rarely, and when she does, she gets all mad and frusterated like I'm an annoyance. She won't let me go out with anyone and constantly has her eye on me. It's really frusterating when you're trying to figure yourself out and experiment and figure out who you want to become when mommy keeps holding you back.
My dad doesn't even pay attention to me. He's so caught up in his work he couldn't care less about my family. He doesn't pay attention to me and has no interest in anything I do or in anything that I accomplish. It would be nice to have a father sometimes.
There's supposedly a history of depression in my family, and it doesn't suprise me. It irratates me that no one wants to seek help and help themselves. I do. I go to counseling, but in the end-it's not gonna stop my parents and how they are towards me.
I'm so hopeless and lost and confused, I just wish I had a mom and dad who cared about me and understands that while I'm transitioning through these early stages of life I'm going to need a little bit of support.
Any parents out there of late teens....what's your advice?
-Daily Migraine Headaches-
"Tell them to look up. Tell them to remember the stars."