Thanks, everyone, for all your support. I'll try to take care of me too. My boyfriend went in to see the doctor and has been diagnosed with bipolar disorder. They've put him on lithium and wellbutrin. He's taken the week off from work and just started his meds. Of course I'm not expecting any instant results, but I try to stay hopeful. Things are stressful because I'm worried about
us moving in together in the next few weeks. Horrible timing, I know...
I'll be starting grad school in the next month and am frightened that either things won't get better or that they'll get much worse. Needless to say, I've had a lot of doubts. I worry that with the added stress of school I won't be able to deal. I think about
him quiting his job and leaving me scrounging to pay rent with my student loans. And then...feeling incredibly selfish for thinking all these horrible, unsupportive thoughts. Yikes. On a positive note, I know he's been through a lot in life and has already made an effort in seeking treatment. I just have to have patience and do my best to help him through this. Thank you all for lending your ears---er, eyes---I mean.
I haven't spoken to any friends or family about
this yet. I'm so glad I've found this forum and feel relieved to find people who understand.