First of all, welcome to Healing Well and we love you. You have come to a wonderful place where everybody is compassionate and kind. Also we feel your pain so we understand. I think you will like it here.
I am so sorry for what you have endured. It is so hard when your mother is struggling with addiction and doesn't seem to care. But I am sure that she really does. She is fighting her own demons. Hopefully in time, she will come around. Remember we seem to hurt the ones that we love. So I am sure that she really loves you, just doesn't seem to know how to show it.
I can understand why your grades aren't "perfect". You have so much going on and I am sure that it is hard to concentrate at times. I am glad that you are liveing in a safe place and that you are loved there. I know that you are loved. It is just a difficult situation at times. I hope some day you and your brothers can get together. We can't keep things secret for ever, so when you get older, maybe you can let them know what is 'really' going on. If you so choose to. That comes with time.
Keep posting, I am sure that you will get more responses and advice here. It is the weekend and sometimes not as many people are on the forum. We have other younger adult members so you should be able to connect with somebody who is your age and understands the things that you are going through.
You have entered a place where there is no judging. And the members are wonderfully understanding. So I hope you stay with us. Have patience. Things will work out for you. You sound to be a very special person.
Do you go to any type of counseling, we strongly recommend that here. We all go ourselves and it has helped many of us. So if things tend to get too difficult for you I would seek counseling, be it through school or otherwise.
I hope that you are having a wonderful day. Keep in touch.
Luv and hugs, Karen...
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