I am sorry you are feeling so down and confused about your faith. I am 3 times your age and Chad I get confused too about mine. Very recently I hardly believed what I used to believe in after being a Christian since I was ten. I had all these doubts about God and even wondered if he existed. I think because we are sensitive people these things happen. I pray still even when i feel like that. I read my Bible and other Christian books to help me. And guess what I still feel confused. It will pass, I know it has to. You will be OK..the feelings will come but just tell Him how you feel.
Its ok not reading if you feel confused. Maybe talk to your pastor or a friend who has the same religion as you do. Religion or not Chad feeling down and confused is a big part of our depression.. I dont know if you take meds but talk to your doc about that too.
I am rooting for you Chad and I know all the others here care too.
Take care and here is a BIG ((((((Chad))))))) for you.