Hello, this is Kitt. Tennis gave you great info and I am glad she was online when you were posting. I am going to expand the list for you so please do print the list of crisis numbers and keep them handy.
The US Suicide Hotline 1-800-784-2433
NDMDA Depression Hotline | Support Group. 800-826-3632
Suicide Prevention Services Crisis Hotline 800-784-2433
Suicide Prevention Services Depression Hotline 630-482-9696
Crisis Help Line | For Any Kind of Crisis 800-233-4357
Suicide & Depression Hotline | Covenant House 800-999-9999
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Befrienders International :: The Samaritans
Metanoia :: Online Therapists
Please remember you may always call 911 for help to and they will take you to the hospital.
I am sorry you are feeling so down but please remember the world is a better place because you live and serve within it. WE are here for you, talk to us about your depression.