First of all, welcome to the forum. You will get a lot of support here and be able to vent when needed. The members are so very kind and compassionate and will give you their honest opinion.
Being that your relationship with this guy was basically over the internet, you don't really know how he really felt. So don't feel like any of this was your fault. It is just the way that it worked out.
I am sure that you have heard this a million times but, there are many more fish in the sea. I am sure that you will find somebody else, but it takes time, as you know, to build a relationship.
I am sorry for your pain, but the days will get easier with time. You are young and hold a bright future. So take this one day at a time and focus on school. The rest will fall into place as it needs to.
Best wishes to you,
PS keep posting, we are here for you...
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