Welcome to healing well. I am so happy that you felt comfortable enough to
open up here on the forum.
Wow...So, first of all. I hope that you are still going through therapy. You need to let a professional know how you are feeling. Though I have faith that you aren't going to harm yourself now. I still think you need somebody like that to talk to. But remember that we are still here for you.
You have to learn not to depend on other people for your own self esteme. You need to be able to love yourself and be able to be happy with yourself on your own.
Have you given up school? What about
working, have you found anything yet? It seems as if you are laying in waiting for what your gf is going to decide when you should be deciding your own destiny. I am really serious. You have to be happy for you. You are a wonderful person and deserve to have a life on your own. You are cheating yourself out of that for somebody who sounds like she wants to only be friends now. You can still be friends, and if you really love her, you want her to be happy no matter whether she is with you or not. So step back and see this for what it is.
Josh, I don't want to hurt you, I just want you to realize how I see this situation. You have to get your emotions under control. You can't go around breaking things and hitting people. I hope that it was just the medication that did that to you and that you wont do this again. You may need some anger management. And need to control your emotions. You sound like a bright young man and it sounds like you have put your life on hold for somebody else and you may end up resenting that. So please get working on getting your life back together, with or without her. You deserve that much.
Please keep posting,
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