There are a few thing I feel like writing down. First of all, my apology's for not being around. I still read most of the posts (so in fact I am still around), but I have a hard time writing reply's.
I am, however, still doing "fine", in a way that I am not completely happy or so, but not as sad as I used to be. Instead, I am confused most of the time. Confused what to say, what not, what to do, what not, why something is, why not, etc. The usual stuff I suppose. I think its best for me now to stop making promises whether I will be there or not, since my mood can change from "eager to go" to the total opposite in no-time. Maybe some of you have experience with this kind of confusion, cause I still don't know what to do.
I also started counseling, by chat now, and next month for "real". We have this great government sponsored program that allows to have free counseling by chat. I found it after a bit of googeling, maybe there is something similar in others country's as well.
I have to eat some dinner now, I hope you are all doing great!
Acceptance is the key
Existential depression and Insecurity
Try to keep smiling! :)