I do the same thing, the other night a girfriend asked me to come over, now I really wanted to, but I kept finding myself doing other things and not leaving. It takes me an hour just to get myself out of the house. I ended up going, but at the same time I was wishing I was home. But she called me a couple days later thanking me for showing up and visiting. All it was, was a few of us girls chatting and having a drink. But it was hard for me to get myself there and I ended up enjoying it in the long run. It did me good to get out, but it was really hard for me. Sometimes I wonder about
myself. I tried as you said, to stay in the moment, but I was anxious to leave when I felt it was time. And I was happy to get home. Sometimes I feel like such a stick in the mud. But I guess that is me, I am happy with the simple pleasures of life. I read somewhere recently that being happy with the little things makes you the richest person there is. I guess that means that there can be so much to look forward to. Where people who have everything with hight tastes will run out of pleasures. Something like that. So I can understand how you feel.
Best wishes for a wonderful day.
Luv and hugs, Karen...
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