I am a 49 year old male from Indiana. I found my faith in God 7 years ago and it changed my life. For the next many years I had never felt so at peace and so "at one" with the world but in the last year I've noticed that there are alot of people, including close friends and some family members that I simply don't understand or like that well. It's as if my "forgiveness" gift has worn thin. I stopped drinking and smoking and stopped alot of self destructive behavior when I started my relationship with God and I still live like that today. I have a nice home and my credit has rebounded now that I'm being responsible again. In the beginning I said goodbye to all the negative influences in my life and that included alot of people that weren't really friends after all. I always said I would only surround myself with positive influences but now I'm finding myself more and more tolerating the company of people I don't respect. It makes me feel like I've let myself down. I try to be understanding and realize I have been very fortunate to have rebounded from such a wasteful existence and that everyone has to battle their own demons. I have alot of people in my life now that like me but I have become the guy they call to just chatter endlessly about themselves and their lifestyles that I not only disagree with but don't want to hear about either. On one hand I think I should be available to them if they need advice but it's gotten to the point that I just get depressed because I feel like they don't respect my convictions. For example, if I knew someone didn't like football, I wouldn't call them and go on and on about what a great game I just watched and it amazes me how many calls I get from friends and family that do just that. I want to tell them that certain subjects simply don't interest me but I don't. I just set there and nearly seethe at their longwindedness and by the time the converstaion is over I'm spent. And although my life isn't as exciting to them as it once was, I would still like the oppotunity to speak about me occasionally but that isn't allowed appearently. It's making feel diconnected and lonely and I don't like that feeling.