Posted 8/12/2008 1:35 PM (GMT -6)
I believe that I am a sufferer of Anxiety and Depression, but I have an awful lot of symptoms that make me feel completly overwhelmed (I have the feeling that it could be millions of thing making me feel this way, so its too much effort to try and search it out, and I can't bring myself to put confidence in any doctors to figure it out).
I would say that the earliest that I've noticed anything like this was back in 2004, when I think I had a panic attack, and it has progressively gotten worse since then. Everyone is telling me that anxiety and depression can cause a whole bunch of physical symptoms, but I can't help but feel like thats impossible. Most of my symptoms seem to be text book, I guess I just need the reassurance that all of this can be caused by Anxiety and depression. I shoudl also mention that I am not fully sure what I am anxious about, or if I even feel anxious at all. I am currently NOT medicated.
Hot / Warm flashes
Feeling like I will pass-out (almost like how your head would feel after 5+ alcoholic drinks)
Decreased Sex Drive
Progressively worse Acid Reflux (medicated, but has been excessive lately)
Heart Palpitations (1 strong heartbeat probably 3-5 times a day)
- I do have Mitral Valve Prolapse, but its never been that frequent
Skipped Heartbeats (followed by the palpitation)
Muscles pulsate at times
Very afraid that my heart is damaged
Feel like I'm not getting enough oxygen
Fear of going crazy, losing control, impending doom, death / sickness
Constant feeling of EVERYTHING being too overwhelming to take on
- Feeling that everything is too much effort
Desensitization (morbid and disturbing things don't seem to phase me nearly as much (And I'm necrophobic)
Obsessed with trying to find a cure
More difficulty forming thoughts and words than even before
Short temper, no patience, cold and angry (definitely has never been me, I've never raised my voice ever)
Remembering how things used to be and wanting to go back
Sour and upset stomach (especially related to eating)
On exhale, tends to feel like it would after your adrenaline is pumping and after there is no more need for alarm. Like I am exhaling my alarmed state / adrenaline (happens unprovoked, or from little things like going through a traffic light and having anxiety about it changing to yellow).
Having a heart attack
having a serious illness
My loved ones dying
Potential Depression symptoms:
Not very interested in anything I used to be anymore
Too lazy to care about things and hobbies that were dear to me at one time
- I thought that maybe I was just uninterested in my hobbies now, but even when I explore new hobby ideas, I can't find anything I'd find interesting
Easy but tedious tasks are hard and drive me crazy (i.e. painting)
Constantly irritated at everything
Feel kind of like no one can help me and that theres nothing that will fix ALL of this
Not very fond of myself at times
Trouble concentrating, learning, making decisions and remembering
Trouble staying motivated to learn new things
Bitter, cold and very short tempered (but I internalize it all)
I would say that any given day, I feel just about all of these symptoms 60-70% of the time. I do have moments where I am happy in the moment, but they never last. Primarily, the "happiest" I ever am is that 2 week period where the seasons change from winter to summer, and from summer to fall, but the happiness doesn't last.
I'm smart enough to know that nearly all of these symptoms are textbook for depression and for Anxiety, but I just can't bring my mind to accept that it is the culprit for ALL of this. My thought process is that there must be some biological / physical reason for all the physical symptoms.
I guess I am jsut looking for support or some friendly stories of symptoms of people with anxiety / depression and if they all went away after treatment. I can say I don't really want to talk to a psychologist about my past, I'd rather go straight to adjusting the feelins. Are there any anti-depressants that also address anxiety?
Post Edited (Krimzen) : 8/12/2008 12:39:17 PM (GMT-6)