I never really thought about
actually shedding the depression. I am so happy that I am "tolerating" it now that resolving it never occurred to me. I've been seeing a therapist for several years. Frankly I think it is time to change as we are not progressing much anymore.
I've had a lot of tragedy in my life over the last 5 years: my baby brother and his wife (my sister-in-law) were both killed in a car crash 3 days before Christmas 5 years ago leaving behind 3 children, my father died of complications of 3rd stage Parkinson's disease after he was cured of prostate cancer and my baby sister died a year ago from incredibly aggressive melanoma cancer. If I did not have a therapist I would probably be toast now. I have 1 sibling left and Mom, which is not exactly what I thought would be my life.
Anyway I'm happy I decided to start on medication. I'm thinking of seeing a real psychiatrist and not just a counselor. Any opinion about
I am age 47 - Father, Paternal Uncle and Maternal Grandfather had/have Prostate Cancer.
Father 74 years old, PSA = 10.6 Gleason = 5 + 5 = 10 (very aggressive) and high involvement in all cores. Seed therapy is the only option. Father died cancer free.
06/04/08 - At physical DRE normal, PSA test returns 4.4
06/20/08 - First Urologist visit. DRE and ultrasound finds nothing conclusive. Doctor says biopsy is the only safe way to go. Prostate volume is 40 grams.
07/11/08 - PSA test returns 4.1. Scheduled the Stereotactic Transperineal Prostate Biopsy for 7/21
07/21/08 - Had the biopsy. Not so bad but sore on day 2. Back to work tomorrow
07/23/08 - Pathology comes back NO CANCER DETECTED!
08/01/08 - Urologist calls and says High Grade Prostatic Intraepithelial Neoplasia ("PIN") was found in my biopsy (read pre-cancerous leisions)