Posted 8/14/2008 1:08 PM (GMT -6)
I had a doctors appt today at 115pm. I was very anxious about it but relieved to finally be going after waiting 3 weeks, so i could tell her all my symptoms including physical and mental. I have had such an anger problem for the last month that I could only assume its depression, since it sends me into crying/weeping moments and loss of total utter control. (not to mention like 10 other side effects/problems Ive had from my crohns medicines)
Then....I get there and they say I have no appt! ***?????? I have been crying ever since. I know I had one, I made one on the phone, put it in my blackberry. I tried to get in sooner a week and half ago because the headaches have been excruciating (all I can think is the stupid idiot took out todays appt when she tried to find me a new one) I HAVE WAITED 3 WEEKS FOR this appt. I really needed to talk to a doctor. I am an emotional mess, like I feel it hurts to carry on. Why did they do this to me. I got so mad at the lady, she told me to find another doc. Now I have to wait even longer to get help. The headaches are constant, my vision goes everyday, my anger and irritablity are out of control. How much longer can I wait?????
I am so mad and so upset....I cant stop crying. WHY? She said i will try and fit you in at 830am tomorrow morning but now that I said she is an idiot (long story), she probably erased me out of that slot too!
I feel like no good thing on earth ever happens for me. I am cursed. My life has been cursed for 3 yrs now. I just want to be happy.
Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength
Dx'd w/Crohn's colitis in May05--spread to ileum & small intestine as of April08. Past meds: Imuran, Remicade, TPN, Colozal, Entocort, Flagyl, PamineForte, Cipro, Dicyclomine, Pred, Asacol, Prevacid, and the list goes on. Currently on Humira every 2wks, Pentasa, Tapering Prednisone now.