Feel relieved to know that she isn't suffering anymore. I watched my first husband die of lung cancer and it was really tough. Though his suffering was at a minimal most of the time, it was still hard to face the fact that he was gone. I was there at the end and something about
the look on his face when he died was relief for me. He was so peaceful at that point.
I am sure that your friend knew that you cared. And like you said, she didn't want anybody to see her in that condition. But I know it is still hard knowing that she is gone now.
Be peaceful with the thought that she is in a much better place now and can look down on you and smile. She wants you to be happy and not sad about
her death. So when you think of her, remember the fone memories that you shared together.
I am so sorry for your loss. It is hard, but like I said, she is in a better place and no longer suffering.
Best of wishes to you at this difficult time.
Luv and hugs, Karen...
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