Posted 8/19/2008 7:41 PM (GMT -6)
Hello to everyone again,
I havent been on in a long time, things have been quite busy and hectic for me and i forget alot of things. Apart from being busy things are going pretty well for me, I'm a stay at home dad now, my partner wanted to go back to work so now i take care of the other duties, kids and such, so i cant work at the moment. I have pretty much conquered my anxiety/agoraphobia which is absolutely fantastic, (although i forgot my Effexor last night and feel really off today). I'm thinking about trying to get off the effexor and maybe trying something different, as the effexor effect my mood and things. I dont really have any emotions, which isnt really good for a relationhsip or trying to become a better parent.
Although i do now spend more time with my children than i ever have before which is great and i'm really enjoying that. I'ts coming up to 2 years since i've had a drink of alcohol, so thats a big milestone for me, and funny enough i dont really miss it any more. My head has become alot clearer without the drink, so much in fact that i'm planning to go and finish my schooling next year and hopefully get a high enough score to go to uni to get a bachelors in forensic science. So all in all things are Slowly coming together, i still have a long way to go, But i havent ever forgotten about all the help an support i have had from all of you here, without that i would'nt be where i am today and my thanks and gratitude go out to all of you.
Also i'm still in the process of writing my book, its just a massive mess at present..lol but its coming along nicely, Which wouldnt have been possible without the help and suppport from everyone here, reading all of the wonderfull things and advice you give helped me to realise that i CAN do it.
Again, i can't thank all of you enough.
I do hope that everyone is doing well, i do think of you often but my memory has been a bit off, so i havent posted, i am doing memory exercises which my phsycologist is helping me with, and it is helping but still a ways to go.
Once again best wishes to all i WILL stay in touch more often, and give advice and support where i can.
LOVE and BIG HUGS to ALL
Suffer from major depression, Agoraphobia, Anxiety, Panic attacks, Recovering Alcoholic.
I have 4 great kids and a wonderfully supportive partner.
"There is a light at the end of the tunnel"