Does anyone else here truly not fit in with their family?
No one else in this world can make me feel worse than my parents and my sister. My sister always has some snotty remark to make about everything I do, acting like she's so much more superior than I because shes older. My mom and dad dont care about me. Im not sure If I can go back to school because I have no money in my account my mom takes all my money and hides it from my dad I have no money now to register back at school.
For the last few weeks I've been throwing up everything I eat because I dont want to gain weight and because I feel miserable about myself.
I just want to go back to school, but now that I'm feeling sick I dont know if I'll be able to pull off one more year, then I'm supposed to move away. But what if I can't move away? All my problems are rooted at home, and I'm just afraid I might do something drastic if I dont get help.
But I'm too afraid to get help. What if I get locked up and can't finish school? What if my friends turn me down? I want to tell my counselor but I'm afraid she'll have me sent away.
I feel so low and horrible right now I've never felt this way before. I just want everything to stop. I hate my family and I need help.
Edit: Sorry I had to edit per rule:
1. No discussion of any illegal activity or threats of violence. (ie. illicit drug use, including medical marijuana use, threats of suicide or self-injury, or threatened or intended physical harm). Discussions of suicide or self-harm that are deemed negative and therefore potentially injurious to others are also not permitted.
Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 8/20/2008 4:06:01 PM (GMT-6)