Whether you know it or not, you are getting better. You are recognizing everything for what it is. The beautiful rainbow you saw. Though it didn't seem to be inspiring, I think it was. You are staying busy, helping around the house. Looking for a full time job, so you are doing all of the right things, and I honestly think that in time, you will start to feel a difference.
Did you ever think that maybe there just wasn't anything good on tv? I know that we have tons of channels, and there are still times when nothing interests me. It isn't because I am down, it is just that there is nothing good on. Maybe that was the case with you today. I am just trying to find some positives here I guess. I think that you are too hard on yourself at times. You are not worthless, you are not pathetic, you are a wonderful person who just happens to have run up on hard times. By the way you dinner sounds good.
I got out and walked my dogs this morning. It was a beautiful time. It wasn't too hot or too cold, it was just right. Just like Goldilocks and the three bears. I got to say hello to a couple of people, but the conversations were short, I like it that way. I find if I have mostly aquaintances instead of friends, it goes a lot easier. I guess I don't like to open up to people that much and that way I don't have to. Don't know if that is healthy or not, but it is easier for me.
I hope that you have a lovely day today.
Keep in touch,
Luv and hugs, Karen