I'm new here so I'll try and sum up how I got to this point.....
I retired from the Navy July 2008 after 25 years of active service. In 2002 I was diagnosed with panic attacks, anxiety and depression and was put on some medication to stable these "issues" out. After a lot of trial and error I finally got on some meds that helped, at the time it was zoloft and wellbutrin. Anyway, time goes by, meds are changed because my body adapted to the drugs and a change was needed, etc. I was doing ok...
Now came retirement time. I was stationed in Hawaii and, as you can imagine, it's almost impossible to survive there on civilian salary (for instance a gallon of milk is almost $8, etc). So I began my job searching......
I ended up getting a job in Grand Forks, ND. It's a good job and the people there are nice. The community is also nice and it will be a great place for my wife and I to raise our kids (I have young kids 7, 5, and 2 years old). I had to relocate here without my family because I own a house in Hawaii and my wife stayed behind until the house sells.
So...with the follwing stressors:
- Retiring from the Navy that paid well at the time.
- Trying to find a job
- Relocating to ND without my family
- Now financial issues because I still have a mortgage (an expensive one) and I have to support myself here at the same time.
- Now running out of meds. It's been a couple weeks now but I'm seeing the Veteran's Administration next week.
- Being alone almost all the time
- Worrying about my family
Things are beginning to get a little unbearable. Man...I've had a couple days when I thought I was going to have an emotional meltdown but the feeling came and went. I've been getting to the gym as much as I can and also trying to be around people as much as possible but anyone with these issues knows that this only helps temporarily.
So I found this site and thought it would be good to talk about my issues some and maybe I can help others cope with what they aregoing through. I know I'm not the only one feeling like this and I don't want to sound as if I'm "whining" but there comes a time when we all need to talk with someone or at least get these issues out and off of our chest.
So that's me....in summary and I just wanted to vent some in hopes that I can slear my head a little and maybe feel a bit better.