Hi Adam welcome to healling well, you can vent all you want, it helps to get things out in the
open and off your chest. I didnt have the best of childhoods either, i think thats why alot of teen do get into drugs etc. My parents were divorced before i wa conceived. The had custody battles to who was going to have the kids, in the end my dad eneded up disowning everyone including me. m almost 40, so tis was 30 yrs ago, and is still all clear in my mind, but time and age, meds, friends have gotten me through, where i can look back and it not hurt so much. but your still so young and not to many years out since all this has happened. It will take time, good freinds, even spirtuallity helps me. Keep posting there many members here that can relate, or just have kind words to let you know someone cares.....
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Posted 8/28/2008 6:58 AM (GMT -7)
Sorry to hear you had so much abandonment issues. I was abused phsyically,abandoned and brusied up pretty bad mentally. What I did to move on was to breath when ever those feelings show up to visit. look ahead don't look back. Time heals alot of wounds throgh forgiveness. Unfortunatly it took me 20 something years. Maybe finding a counselor just to listen will help. Hope your day goes better,keep looking forward, and breathe just breathe.
Posted 8/29/2008 2:00 AM (GMT -7)
You know who you are? A great guy who had some bad circumstances. I've been there too -- pushing people away and not knowing why. Being lost and alone, feeling like you have no one to talk to. You do. Lots of people. People here and people offline. Chances are you are dealing with the world the best way you know how. And you're actually doing quite well. I know it may not feel that way sometimes but you have a job and you realize that there are these patterns in your life that are not leading you toward being the person you want to be. That's huge because 1) you have a starting point and 2) you see that it doesn't have to be like this.
You have not lost control of your life -- in fact, you are finally taking control of it. Up until now, you've been shuttled around and bounced back and forth and its been quite a ride. You are awaking to the awareness of that. I would say you are lost because you had no control of your life -- what kid does? -- and now you are waking up to that.
As far as how to move past a bad childhood? I agree with Gennie that a counselor would be a good move -- get your past out of your present and your future. Also, I suggest joining a volunteer organization doing something you really enjoy. It doesn't matter what it is. Music, nature, reading, dancing, whatever. Just do something and relearn how to make friends.
Also, these guys are great when you need someone to chat with -- for any reason: http://www.samaritans.org/.
Posted 8/29/2008 3:42 PM (GMT -7)
I am so sorry you went through an unthinkable situation growing up. It is frequently the children that get the short end of the straw in a divorce. You got more then your dose of pain from the behavior of the adults in your life.
Is there anyway you can go to counseling? You have a whole childhood of issues you need to deal with and then put them in the past.
Please know we care and keep posting.
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