I am 25, going to the University of South Florida in Tampa, FL where I am studying Physical Education. I am gay and a veteran of the army and war in Iraq. My family lives in Michigan, I don't have a whole lot of friends, and I have been single of bout 2 years. I am having issues of being wanted, I'm lonely, broke, and just want to give up on myself at times. I want to pick up and move away. I have been unemployed since May. I bought a mercedes before I got fired and now I can't afford it. My credit cards are max'd out and my GI Bill runs out in 4 months. I am overwhelmed with bills and can't pay some of them now. My mom is my best friend, but she can't help in any way. My dad accepts me for who I am, but is a horrible father. He and I haven't gotten along in years. He has a new family now and I don't talk to him anymore. I want to find a special person to settle down with and that's not happening either. I have learned a lot growing up and I'm a pretty sane person. I have a year and half left of college, but I, for some reason, want to pack up and move out of Tampa. Most people say I am good looking, but no one I think is a decent match puts interest in me. I think parents shouldn't have kids, unless they are willing to pay for their education. Or even, when I mess up and need support. I feel like a failure and I need support. I paid for my brother's last semester at his college back in 2004 when I had money saved up from Iraq. Now, I'm in need of assistance and no one can help. My grandma gave us both gold coins years ago and I used mine on my old car. He has two left, which equals around $2000.00. He wants to save it for his future kids. I have helped so many people in the past, but no one seems to help me in need. I just need help dealing with this. I walk around moping, can't find a job, give up on myself, and want out. I know this blog is all over the place, but that's my life in a nutshell. Thanks for listening!