I agree with Karen and Kitt on the counseling. I started becoming bulemic when I was 14 and anorexicat 15 through 19 yrsold, I did see counsling at 17, but i got freaked out becasue the counsler wanted to admit me to a hospital, and since i was on the better half of 17 , I did have a choice and said no. Maybe I shouldnt have dont that. But i still would binge well in to my thirties( i am 39 now) i am no longer bulemic, but i am very overweight. And really having a hard time struggling with that, so i can kinda unsterstand where your at. For me it more of the comfort foods, like stouffers mac and cheese, cassoroles etc. But i will tear up some icecream if someone gives it to me. I try not to buy these things, real hard to do with school age kids. But I ave been buying alot tuna and having that with a couple of crackers, been trying to eat things with high protien, im having a hard time eliminating carbs, becasue thats all i could eat last year, i was very sick with gastroparisis(paralyzation of the stomach, where my food wasnt not digesting, probably the sam mobility probalem you have, very slow) so against my will i was vomiting everything up, lost alot of weight, then my gastro got me on some good meds and I felt better, and started to eat again, and the weight came back on double so now i am very overweight for my heighth, my gastro wants me on high protien very low carb diet, just meat and vegatables, and I am slowly trying to wean off of carbs. When i was so sick carbs was all i could eat.
Anyway I do know what your going through, i even have the hiatial hernia, which my gastro doesnt seem worried about, but I am .
we are here for you anytime, so please keep posting, we will listen and help the best we can.
Although counsling is also what you need right now too, i hope eting solids is not harming your recovery if your suppose to be eat liquids.
Just remember your not alone and were are here....