Are you taking any medications for depression? When I took prozac I felt like that. I would look at food and gain weight. I switched to effexor. They say that it doesn't make you gain. They say that anyway. I know that a lot of mine is from not walking like I use to before I got fibromyalgia. I use to walk a lot everyday and that kept the weight down.
Are you going to counseling at the moment? I really think that you need to talk to a professional, all I can do is tell you what I think. A counselor could help you stop what you are doing. And just a change in medication, or starting if you aren't taking any, could change the way that you feel and you wouldn't be going through this.
Honestly I don't understand the purging, though I can't say that I haven't been tempted. But I try to eat healthy, close to the earth. Small portions more frequently throughout the day. Also drinking water fills you up and is good for you.
I wish that I knew all the right words for you. I wish that I could help you more than this. I do know how uncomfortable it feels to feel over weight. But if people are telling you that you don't look fat, it is most likely your self image. The doctor told me that I looked okay. And other people tell me that I look okay. But I see myself as fat. So I wonder if you are seeing yourself differently than you are.
Either way, I hope that this has helped you somewhat, I know that I don't have all the answers that you would like and need. I know what you are doing is unhealthy. It is hard on your body and there is stomache acid in the vomit that can eat your esauphagus and your teeth. Plus you wont get any vitamins or nutrients out of the food. Do you have a diet plan? What kind of foods do you eat? Try to eat as healthy as possible. Try to eat slowly and enjoy your food. I have a tendancy to eat fast because I don't want to eat. I am trying to take my time and relax when I eat now. It is hard for me.
I hope that you feel better and can get your diet straight. Keep me posted.
Moderator-Depression and fibromyalgia
fibromyalgia, Chronic fatigue, depression,allergies