Had a really
After first doc came round yesterday, and offered me nothing, except triple nefopam-which didn't do anything. Another doc came round, and spoke to me in an easy, none ordering manner, and asked what I thought would help. I mentioned Valium, purely because when I had my portacath fitted, it just relaxed me so much. She wasn't too keen, mainly because she thought a Nefopam and Diazapam combo, would knock me out. I explained, that's exactly what I wanted. So she prescribed 2mg of diazapam, and more nefopam as PRN, should pain get really unbearable throughout day. Yes, I'm sure this means I exceed regular dosage. But then, there's nothing else I can have. I like this doc so much, I like docs who listen to my suggestions and actually consider them, rather than seeing me just as a patient who doesn't know anything about meds, and should follow their orders.
I took the diazapam after my last lots of meds last night. I cannot remember much other than sitting on my bed. It knocked me out good and proper, probably because my body was so tired anyway. Got woke up this morning by some nurse who decided to ask if I wanted breakfast at 7am. For the first hour, my head felt like it was wrapped in cotton wool and cushioned and I was in no pain at all. I didn't have my normal thoughts of-gosh I survived another day, or how am I gonna survive today. I woke up feeling so refreshed. Slowely the cotton wool unravelled and I'm almost back to normal, and slowely pain started too come back.
To wake up pain and worry free though, I've not known this in so long, and it was just sooooo nice!
I just wish it was a med that could be prescribed always, life would be so much easier if I didn't think so much lol.
I feel so much more chilled out today-but then after been woken by first nurse, another nurse then did come and give me a huge hug, and told me it was her looking after me today, so could be a feeling of relief at being looked after by a nurse I can trust 300%. It's the same nurse who took me horse riding lol.
Also, Paul has rang this morning, to tell me I've received a get well soon card through the post, from the mentor place I volunteer at. Brought a few tears too my eyes did that. It's so nice to know they're thinking of me, and there's no pressure to make it in next Tuesday. If it had been paid work, knowing I'm due out on Tuesday, they'd have got me doing a shift. It's nice not to have pressure.
Hmmmmm, hope this good mood sticks, it's nice to be having such a positive day!