Glad to hear that your husband is trying to start taking small steps to get better and that you are catching up on your work! That is great! Especially that you are feeling optimistic! I have about a million things to vent about and things that I question, but don't have that much time in the day to type it all. I am lucky in that I have a job where I work for a non-profit and am the sole employee, so I have a lot of flexibility to do what I need to do, but I still have a job to get done in the office. However, the problem is that I feel like I have to text him back every time because when I don't, he seems to start panicking. I am hoping that this will get better over time, especially once the medicine kicks in. He said he wanted to talk about some things tonight, so I am thinking that I will bring it up then. I want to be there to help, but I don't want to be an enabler and shield him from everything. Ultimately, he does have to deal with this on his own. I can support him, but I know I can't do it for him. His first appt. with the therapist is next Monday, so once he starts going to those appointments, I am hoping to see at least a little bit of progress start. I know this cannot be fixed overnight and that we have a long road ahead. The hard thing for me is all the spectrum of feelings that I am dealing with, from fear and anger at him to pity and love. I know it's probably all normal. I am thinking I might try to start going to a counselor myself to deal with it all. Blueskies, do you go to a counselor for you? I am trying to find some time to do things for myself, but it is very hard with three boys and a job and a depressed husband to take care of. There just doesn't seem to be any place to fit it in!! Somebody always needs me for something. I never thought I would get tired of being needed, but I am so there. Writing on this forum is about all I do for me now with the exception of phone calls here and there. After our crisis situation last week, I am tired of being on the phone because that is all I did for 5 days straight. We have good friends and family to support us and I know that once my husband is in a less fragile state, it will get easier and I will be able to take some time for myself. This stage is just very, very hard!