Welcome to HealingWell and I am so sorry for your pain but hearing your outlook on your recovery now is extremely inspirational. Thank you for sharing.
I lost a sister on Thanksgiving Day and my only other sister is slowily dying of extensive ovarian can cancer so I have to watch people I love die. I understand how it can overwhelm you completely and you look to anything that will help you .............alcohol, gambling.
I am very lucky to have a wonderful husband who has supported me through all the bad times.
I hope your surgeries go well and know we will be praying for you.