First of all I want to say that I am a very resiliant person. I have had a good life so far. Some major struggles, here and there, but I have always come out okay. I was recently dx. with fibromyalgia and I have wondered if there isn't some emotional componant to this.
Briefly, I just want to say that I am under a lot of stress. I have 4 children. One is visually impaired at the age of 4 and has had 14 eye surgeries. My husband and I do not get along anymore and sometimes fight. He threatened divorce the other day in front of my oldest dd and she got sick and threw up. She is a dd from a previous marriage.
The worst part is taking care of my little ones. It is extremely stressful to get them fed, dressed, out the door to some appt. on time, etc. I am finding that I am losing my patience. I don't ever seem to get a break from the care and then I feel guilty for not playing with them and enjoying them. My friend (who i talk to almost daily) says I'm a good mother and doing great under the circumstances. I feel isolated, I don't have many friends (I moved here 5 years ago) and after quiting my job to stay at home I'm just miserable and can't seem to get anywhere.
Then there is the fibro pain. My shoulder is killing me. Today I went out and bought Capsesin and used it. I have aches everywhere. And brain fog to boot!
Every day I am faced with dishes, laundry, diapers, tantrums, bored children. etc. And to top it off my dh is a neatfreak and says I'm "useless" because I didn't have the inclination or energy to do any cleaning or cooking (I cook 90% of the time if not more).
Anyway, thankyou for letting me come here and vent. Any suggestions would be appreciated. Oh and I was told by my therapist to find a psychiatrist who could prescribe an anti-depressant for me. I am nursing my child but he should be weaned in another month
I am a mother to 4 children; James 11 mo.'s, Davey 2 1/2 yrs,
Dana 4 1/2yrs, and Anne 9 yrs. I am currently studying to become a natural childbirth educator.... and just trying to figure out where my priorities are right now.