Thanks so much for all your reply's!
I just had a really bad day yesterday, because right now I am doing great again, even with my study :). I just started with my study, so I am in first year, but turning 18 and the trip to Rwanda made me realise there is so much more in life than study, something that only recently popped up my head. I am just not sure if this is the direction I want to go, but I guess time will give me the answer.
But now I have to go again, to do my homework for this evening (thanks to a bad day