Oh Aurora, that is so sad. I'm a huge dog lover, I'm honestly not happy if I don't have a dog. I remember losing my first dog that I grew up with when I was in 5th grade and I was absolutely devastated. She was having a seizure and my parents brought her to the vet and they came home with no dog and a box of donuts (maybe to help ease the blow?) Needless to say I didn't touch the donuts, I just sat in the bathroom and cried. I've had one dog pass since then and I currently have two dogs, a boxer and a lab, and I just dread the day I know must come. Pets are such a special type of friend... They're the best listeners, they always know how to make you smile, they forgive easily, and even when they do something wrong you can't help but love them anyway. I think the strongest love I've ever felt is for my animals.
But as you said, love and grief just go hand in hand and it's all part of this crazy thing we call life. Maybe it's because i'm still young but I still haven't completely grasped the idea of mortality... It's so hard to wrap your mind around all of the concepts of life. How something so wonderful and beautiful could at the very same time be painful and ugly.
I'm glad you still have a furry friend around and that you two are keeping each other company in this sad time. I still feel sad for my pets I've lost but the hurt eases up eventually and just becomes fond memories. Do you think you will ever get another puppy to care for?
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