Its been ages since my last chat if you remeber my msg about
being worried about
going to this new school and all that.
But I have been going since (but I didn't go once for one week cause I was too stressed out an all) and I haven met one person who seems nice and we do hang together in school, so I guess that is a good point.
But today she didn't come in and I was just freaking out. (in my head an all) but when stuff like that happens I cannot think straight and I become really really really really shy. And so becuase I am doing hairdressing and every girl their is mostly all in your face, I find it so difficult to get by. And then I get nervous and I just want to go home, but I can't act like a kid anymore becuase they won't give me second chances now that I am 16
darn I hate socity!!! Just becuase your age is a number, doesn't mean that you are that wise or unwise. I am 16 but I still am to young to do things. The law says that I can do things but in myself I am not able to.
However I did cope but sometimes it gets to too much.
Like when I look at the calender and I realise that half term is SO far away. I just have to try and go day by day, but then I contemplate on things too much.
My life is just too difficult sometimes. I can't bere it. People are scary things, and I am too afraid and shy to properly deal with them. And I get jealous when others can, so I isolate myself even more.
What to do, what to do.