Posted 10/2/2008 5:37 AM (GMT -6)
I have been doing really good lately, I have been calm & relaxed and not angry or moody or snappy. BUT! this week I feel like it's starting to come back!! Aaaarrrggghh! My thoughts are racing like crazy. I cannot stop thinking. My inner voice is constantly whispering irrational thoughts to me, like that my boyfriend is cheating on me, or lying to me or not paying me enough attention or all kinds of things, which in reality are totally not true. I have progressed to the point where I can generally keep these to myself, without causing arguements or trouble or throwing accusations around, but that doesn't mean that these sorts of thoughts don't hurt me, they tire me out so much.
Lately I have been so happy, my job is going great, relationship going great, family are good, for the last month or so everything has been lovely, but now all of a sudden my mind is working overtime again & causing problems where there are none!
Not even sure what I am looking for in writing this, I am seeing my counsellor tomorrow so hopefully that will help!
"The Optimist sees the rose and not its thorns; the pessimist stares at the thorns, oblivious of the rose."
"Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass, its about learning to dance in the rain"