Hi I normally post on the fibro forum, but I've suffered from depression for most of my life and have been going through a rough time lately. I started therapy when I was 10 years old and I'm 24 now. In this time I have probably had a few dozen different therapists. I just can't seem to hold onto a therapist for very long, I always end up having to find someone new for various reasons. Sometimes it's a schedule conflict. Sometimes the therapist moves, leaves the practice, or retires. Other times there's a problem with my health insurance. And other times I just plain don't get along with the therapist. Needless to say this has caused real problems with me making any kind of progress.
The last therapist I was seeing just didn't have room for me in her schedule anymore. I guess it was all for the best because I really didn't like her anyway. I sought out a new therapist and went in for an intake session. Now as I said, I've seen a lot of therapists in my life, but I've never gotten as good a first impression from any of them as I did with this latest therapist and I was really excited to start working with her. Then the next week I get a call from her and it turns out that my medical assistance won't cover her, for some reason they only cover one person in her practice and it's not her. With just my health insurance, I'd have to pay $40 a session and I simply can't afford that since I'm disabled and not currently working. She did say she would try to contact my medical assistance to see what she had to do to get them to cover her. I'm extremely grateful for that, no one else would have done that for me and it seems like my first impression of her was correct. She has no idea how long this is going to take or if she can even get them to cover her at all, but I'm just glad she's trying.
A part of me knows that I should try to find someone else if this doesn't work out, but after meeting with this latest therapist, I just don't want to see anyone else. My gut is telling me that if anyone can help me at all, then it's her, and I shouldn't waste my time with anyone else. I've certainly noticed my mood declining since this all happened and some of the few things that used to give me pleasure I haven't been in the mood to do anymore.
Has anyone else had this much difficulty with finding a good therapist, or is there just something about me that drives them all away?
~Kythe
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