So yesterday i came back to my new house from college...i went to get my dog from the back of the house and all i could see was her laying there.
i went to go get here, dropped everything, and realized she was wrapped up in her lease my my fathers new dog and she was straggled to death. I booked inside to find some scissors to cut her loose...i started bawling histercally and ended up puking several times.
i really just need someone to talk to or listen to me. or even just tell me what to do. I ended up burying her last night, after i couldn't find pictures of us. It made me realize how horrible i have been.
I have been a in the past and am having strong urges to do it again.....i can't stop crying about it either.
i just have so many questions;
- does she know how much i cared for her? she was the most important "being" in my life and now shes gone!
- does she hate me for leaving her?
theres just too much to deal with but hopefully someone is here that i can talk to
Post Edited By Moderator (getting by) : 10/4/2008 11:07:25 AM (GMT-6)